DAY 7 - Oh, BOY

Ok today was a major struggle, because i was put up against one of my biggest weaknesses and I had a really hard time talking myself down. More on that to follow. Also - Measurements and weight tomorrow! After one week I am excited to see where I am. I got my 7 Day Body Cleanse this afternoon. That is probably the part I am the most nervous about. I have heard a lot about the taste, and the "effects" however, I have heard it makes a huge difference. SO I will for sure do it, I am just nervous. Ok here is the Log-

Breakfast: Herbal Detox tea with a 1/2 pomegranate energy fizz stick. WOW! I am hooked it was soo yummy and surprisingly I didn't get hungry again till around 10:30am, I am positive that it had nothing to do with satisfying my hunger and more to do with giving me the energy and enough satisfaction to get my morning under way. At 10:30 I made a smoothie - sans protein powder- just Almond milk, 4 strawberries, 3 drops of Agave Nectar, and 2tsp. of Fiber Boost.
Lunch:3/4 cup brown Rice, 1/2 cup asparagus, 3/4 cup broccoli, and 3oz. chicken - Multivitamin packet
Snack:Chocolate Fit Chew @ 4:30pm
Dinner: Grilled Beef Kabobs, Coconut Rice, Green Salad - This is when I was confronted with the Weakness! So here is the story - We got back From the Conference in Vegas, then a couple days of regrouping, then my family was here for my brothers Graduation, then we went to SLC, then yesterday I was working with my business, washing loads and loads of laundry, and working with a teething almost 1 year old, also I reorganized my office -total Mess. My house was in a serious need of a deep cleaning and I seriously could not stand another second of looking at it. So I spent the entire day today cleaning every inch. I knew we were going over to our friends house for dinner at 6:00pm and I needed to get to the store to grab a couple things to make a "Clean" dessert and to finish the salad I was taking, but time just got away from me! I couldn't stop cleaning and before I knew it, it was 5 o clock and I was still not showered, but every part of my house was finally clean! Anyways, I had to send Brett to the store to get Dessert (because by this time there was not time to make anything) and the salad fixins.

I am hurriedly doing my hair and make up while keeping bug from unraveling the toilet paper roll, turning on the tub, getting into the toilet and emptying my underwear drawer - I know right, a day in the life-. Brett walks back in the door at like 5:50pm with the salad stuff and CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER BARS!!! Ugh, why- why does Chocolate have to be soo addicting. I haven't been confronted with a challenge like this sense the cleanse began. I mean I have been confronted with Pie, meh I can live without it. Ice Cream and root beer at the restaurant, Zack was eating a root beer float and I died a little inside. Ever since I was a little kid there has been no dessert like root beer floats. MMMm I could go on but I'll spare you. I still shrugged it off no sweat. Well and the recent Dairy allergy kind of helped with that too. I used to try and eat the really good dairy things just because maybe it would taste so good it would be worth the effects. I have out grown that very poor lapse in judgement. It is NEVER worth the awful effects that I get from Dairy. So anyways, I am trying to transform myself. THE OLD me would never be able to resist the combinations of chocolate and peanut butter and Chocolate and Mint. And earlier this evening all those same thoughts came pooring in like a freight train. JUST HAVE ONE BITE! It's going to be fine you have been soo good, it is not going to make a difference in the whole 30 days. Will it? Brett picks one up and starts munching on it as he plates up the rest, I tell him to just plate up most of them and only save what he knows he will eat.

We had a great evening, and the dinner was awesome. Then Dessert rolls around, all the plates are passed around and the husbands dig into theirs. I tried to be nonchalant about not taking one, and no one said anything, but my friend didn't take one either. And she and I just went on chatting through dessert. I had a super hard time paying attention to what she was saying because I felt so bad, she is even pregnant! I hope so badly that she wasn't not eating one because I wasn't. Because if I didn't make a commitment on May 1st to eat clean all month I would be on bar 5 right now! (ok ok maybe not 5 but close).
... Now here even as I sit, I know they are in the kitchen, in the pantry, in a Blue Tupperware container (where I had to put them because Brett just left them out on the counter where they would inevitably be dry in the morning). SO they will be there again in the morning, and all day long tomorrow, pleasantly moist from the mounds of butter and oil mixed into their contents to give them the perfect harmony of salty and sweet... WOW, yeah I am sending them to work with Brett tomorrow, they can't be in this house much longer. This is a PROCESS of Transforming. I am not there yet, and I may be standing strong right now, but let's not take any chances. :)

Haha, I just re-read that and it is an embarrassing amount of honest, you'd think I weigh a million pounds, jeez. Well, thanks for reading Friend:)